Moment Over

I had a revelation...

I had a moment where I stepped outside myself in order to talk to myself.


I had a one on one with me.


And I told my self to cut the crap.


I was letting so many days and weeks of peace and joy slip through my fingers because I was forgetting that when I try to carry my own burdens and worries, DAMN, they weigh a lot.


So after a loving tongue-lashing to myself I dropped the weight of those worries right where they belong...in His hands.


Man that was freeing!


So, like I told my sister...I had a moment.  And now its over.  And I feel great because I realize that I don't have to carry these things AT ALL.  I don't have to worry about them or sort them out or figure them out or will myself to "make things happen".


I DON'T HAVE TO DO ANYTHING.


All I have to do is surrender all those thing that I think are so important and oh, so vital for me to have "now" or later or never or when the hell ever to the only person I know who can do it for me.  The only one who can work it out and give it back to me all shiny and new and ready to be received...God.


It's amazing.  I just have to let it go.  Cause in the end He only wants good for me anyways. So anything "good" I want for me I'm gonna get anyway cause He's just that cool and loving.  Anything that I need to get rid of I don't need to get rid of on my own...I just say, "I'm letting it go, please get rid of it for me" and He does.  I  don't have to say, "I'm going for that and I won't stop till I get it!" all I gotta say is, "Can I have it Daddy?" and there it is!  So I put myself through a moment of confusion and frustration....but amazingly...

It was worth it.

Cause when I forget....He reminds me....and then I fall in love with Him all over again cause I remember that I always knew how great He was and is...and I have nothing to worry about anymore.


And I am happy that I, me, Lisi....I don't need to have the power to do squat...I don't need the energy or strength or posses any qualities that others think I need to get anything for my life....all I need is a God who loves me enough to move the skies for me and I am perfect.


And that....that is what you call....


Freedom :)