Its hard to take it all in.
Its hard to read his messages and not feel like, WHAT THE HELL??? I mean everything, EVERYTHING that I have eaten in my life basically is killing me! Wasn't food supposed to give life? Yeah our food here sucks and is all full of chemicals and bad crap, I've seen all those movies about why we should eat organic and why farm grass eating cows are better for you so I know that in America these big food companies really only care about money and not the quality of our lives so people like me develop Crohn's Disease and can't find anything to eat.
Whew! That was a long sentence!
But he did provide something that was so enlightening. Turns out I DON'T have a disease after all, thank you very much! I have a side effect! My body is talking to me and telling me that something is wrong. That the food I am eating is giving me a bad side effect. Hmmm...I think I like that! NO.. I LOVE THAT! For those of you who know, I hate thinking of myself as having a "disease" so this suits me just fine. Side effect? I can deal with that!!! I can overcome a side effect!
Ok God, here I am....once again...I'm in need of ressurection...and in need of some enlightenment. Help me. Help me process all this. Its overwhelming to think that I could have the power to change all this...especially when all i want to do is give up. It just seems like such hard work! And I just want things to be easy. But its not going to be easy is it? Nothing for me has ever been, why should this? Ok.
Life...get ready for change...
Ewww...
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