Gut feeling...Why I should always listen to you.

A while back I wrote about how I was adopting the philosophy of "Silence is Golden".  I decided that this was more than just a genius statement but a phrase that I would add to the list of phrases that I would use to shape my life.


But because I have the habit of second guessing myself, I went against this "rule" of silence.  And opened my damn mouth.  


There have been moments in my life where I have been proud of speaking out and saying what I feel is right to say at the time.  I am not usually a person of regret.  I feel that if I spoke at the time, then it was appropriate for the moment... consequences come what may.  I don't usually shy away from speaking what I consider to be "truths".


But my gut, my very soul, shouted out in loud unavoidable words of caution to keep silent.  Did I? No. Instead I listened to others.  I have wonderful people in my life.  People I trust and whose guidance is imperative to my growth.  But boy did they get it wrong.


I KNEW I should listen to the warning in my heart and stay silent...at least for a longer period of time.  I am learning that I sometimes the best person to glean advice from...is myself.  My gut.  My heart.  While it can be misleading at times, for the most part, when coupled with prayer and wisdom, it never leads me astray.

So nothing Earth-shattering happened other than a small change in the way I deal with something in particular. But that small change has created a need for larger changes.  And so the rippling effect is alive and active.  That one small change has rippled across my life and its effect is sending out waves of difference and change in other parts of my life.  I can say that it is good.  And yes, even in some ways, not so good.


But the waves keep getting bigger.  There is no stopping them now.  My gut tells me to ride the waves and appreciate that these changes are doing me well.  But I miss what was.  I miss it a lot.  And there is no going back.


Wish I knew how to surf...fml lol