I have yet to be proven wrong yet feel that I am desperate to experience someone's attempt.
I don't know.
What am I putting out there...or not putting out there for that matter that has me on such a mission? People around me smile with joy over new things. I sit with a confused look on my face. Is it me? What needs to change?
I took one teeny tiny step towards change yesterday. Well, a change for me. I took this deep stretching aka yoga class thing yesterday. It felt AMAZING! I felt as if someone had blown tiny pockets of expanding air into my body. I can't wait to try it again actually. I am looking forward to it tonight. Its weird because I feel like I am really releasing a bunch of crap. Like I am just letting it go.
Maybe that's what needs to change. Just to let go and really (ok here comes the cliche) let God take control. Feeling my body move in that way reminds me of a time long ago when dancing was as effortless as breathing. Its funny to see how a body that is so not used to movement and stretch differs SO very much from what once was lol. I was amazed how much I have lost my flexibility!
But back to my original topic. I don't know what is taking so long. I don't know why I am still frustrated with the same damn issue. When does it get fixed? When does it get better? I am over it...or am I just giving up.
I surrender.....they win!
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