The hidden truth

My mind is filled with thoughts
Thoughts of you and
Thoughts of me
Thoughts of all the things
That we could be.

How fleeting are the moments
We let pass by.
How quickly we forget
all the tears we've cried.

In one single solitary moment
Wrapped in your embrace.
Lost forever somewhere
Between time and space.

Things remembered
Things forgotten
Things I swore to hold on to.
Melt away, slip away
All becomes unglued

Fading into the distance
Covered over by the warmth
All shadows disapear
Peaceful waters replace the storms

Should I just let go?
Should I just hold on?
Should I listen to the voices
that shout warnings from beyond?

Should I follow my heart?
Should I dance to this song?
Knowing once long past
All the steps were wrong.

Oh God, give me an answer
a sign, a message I pray.
Tell me what to do
and how to find a way.

I am filled with light
and covered in its glow
And yet I feel trapped by emotions
that I swore I'd let go

So strong are the winds of change and
the breeze of familiarity
So enticing is the fragrance of sameness
It blends dreams with reality

Awake my heart feels
and more alive then ever before
Yet scared and confused and
waiting, longing to hear more

From God, from friend,
from counsel or from you
But I know what they'd say
And I'd know just what I'd do

So I will let the words you spoke
sit deep within my heart
Quietly and never-moving
hidden in the dark

Away from prying eyes
and ears that stretch to hear
Away from my own worries and
Buried from my fears

I know one day clarity will sit with me
And show me all things right
I know one day this darkness
Will be overcome by the light

But how I wish my eyes did not see
How I wish I did not taste
The things my hands reached out to hold
Perhaps in to much haste

You will never know these things I feel
No, I will never let you in
Until the day when I can say
You are now more than just my friend

So secretly will I hide the truth
Oh, you will never ever know
That it is me who loves you and waits
for our love to finally grow

So simple are these words of mine
So infantile are the phrases
Yet so complex are the emotions within
Filled with layers and many phases.

I know what your heart longs to hide
I can hear the whispers it makes
I know that only I know your chameleon soul
And all the colors it takes

So lets keep what we feel hidden away
Yes, even from each other
I'll pretend I know nothing about what we know
We keep lying to one another

Until the day you finally see
And I finally give in
And lost into your embrace I'll be
My here on Earth piece of Heaven