Ok I have seriously slacked.
But life as I know it has changed...
for the scarier...
for the more exciting...
for the unknown...
and yes, even for the better.
I sit and type this blog from my very own, very small, new apartment.
I must say that there was a time when I never thought this would happen. Its been a short time since I have been here and I still feel like its not really mine. I felt like that when I bought my car lol. Like at any moment someone would show up and say, "Sorry we made a mistake you must return it." I kinda feel like that. But different. Here it feels like I don't really LIVE here yet. Its like I am just staying here for now.
Have you ever felt like that? Like you don't really reside where you live you just stay there? Maybe after some time passes and more furniture arrives and a new coat of paint covers the hideously white walls I will feel more a sense of ownership? Maybe then I will have this moment of clarity and of understanding and say to myself, "Welcome home".
Maybe.
Right now I am just here. Trying to build a little life for myself. Far away from everyone I know. All alone. And yeah its scary sometimes. I often wonder, what if I get bored? Or, what if there is a bug? LOL. Yeah, living on my own will be interesting. But its WAY over due.
So here is to my little home. My little piece of me. My little step into my future. Its new. Its strange. Its scary.
But its mine :)
But life as I know it has changed...
for the scarier...
for the more exciting...
for the unknown...
and yes, even for the better.
I sit and type this blog from my very own, very small, new apartment.
I must say that there was a time when I never thought this would happen. Its been a short time since I have been here and I still feel like its not really mine. I felt like that when I bought my car lol. Like at any moment someone would show up and say, "Sorry we made a mistake you must return it." I kinda feel like that. But different. Here it feels like I don't really LIVE here yet. Its like I am just staying here for now.
Have you ever felt like that? Like you don't really reside where you live you just stay there? Maybe after some time passes and more furniture arrives and a new coat of paint covers the hideously white walls I will feel more a sense of ownership? Maybe then I will have this moment of clarity and of understanding and say to myself, "Welcome home".
Maybe.
Right now I am just here. Trying to build a little life for myself. Far away from everyone I know. All alone. And yeah its scary sometimes. I often wonder, what if I get bored? Or, what if there is a bug? LOL. Yeah, living on my own will be interesting. But its WAY over due.
So here is to my little home. My little piece of me. My little step into my future. Its new. Its strange. Its scary.
But its mine :)
